Procrastination 1 - Blissful Sister - 0

Hellooo!!

How can it be that three and a half months have passed by and I haven't blogged?? 

The point of this blogging thing is to make me accountable!  

Bloody Nora!!

The good news is that I feel soooo much better, the darkness has lifted.  I am enjoying my two jobs because the people I work with are AWESOME.

I am slowly making a little headway financially, but I would not say I have increased my income significantly . . .  yet.

The INN progress has not improved, but I will get there - I will!! 

Leonie Dawson workbook - a bit hit and miss too. 

What have I been doing??  A little bit of "ground hog day" mixed in with juggling work and my daughter, being LAZY - yes LAZY.  Sometimes after work and the bath/dinner/bedtime routine and dishes, this Sister just wants to park her bum on the couch and watch some mindless TV.  Which is shocking to admit, but the truth.  Then I wonder why I haven't changed my life!!!

I read a post on Leonie Dawson's facebook page the other day that said :

My grand ideas of writing a book on Endometriosis, speaking to groups of people on health and wellness, running workshops on creating joy, earning $10,000 a week, are not going to manifest if I keep doing what I wrote in the paragraph above - otherwise they are only every going to be ideas, dreams, wishes and hopes.  The thing that turns them into reality is action!!  

I've only heard this a few thousand times, but it was the visual of the coloured text above that kind of hit me between the eyes.

How do you get fit if you don't get out of bed and more your arse?
How do you become a Health Coach if you don't complete your units and graduate?
How do you glow with health if you don't do ALL the things necessary for the mind, body and soul to get you there?

The good news is that I feel much better, I have left the grey, sad fog behind and although I have my moments, I am moving through them quickly and realising the opportunities they provide for learning, growth, application of what I know.

I have also been having Kineseology and it has been blowing my mind!  The things that are coming up are incredible

• My absolute sense of fear around starting my own business, my logical mind wants me safely ensconced in a 'normal job' to provide financial security. This explains why it felt like I had my arms and legs cut off whenever I sat down to work on Blissful Sister after I left work in October. 
• My struggle with forgiveness, of both others and myself.  I thought I was progressing, but not as much as I thought.
• My fear of relationships - all across the board.  I know I don't want an intimate relationship with anyone soon, but I have been neglecting my friendships with family and friends.
• This is interesting considering what's above, but I fear I am a loner.  When that came up I cried so much my hair was soaked and it took a while before we could move on. It was a revelation because I thought I liked being alone, but perhaps that is a protective mechanism?
• My inability to connect with my higher self - that is the one I am exploring at the moment.
  

Kinesology is amazing, I highly recommend it.  The body stores so much emotion and information that is not apparent to our logical mind - it is a revelation.  I will post more about it on Blissful Sister later.

In light of my need to strengthen relationships and try and move out of my loneliness - I am going to a friend's house tonight to watch The Eagles (Aussie Rules) and drink sparkling wine - not too much hopefully LOL!  Alcohol and me have an interesting relationship, it kinda kills me nowadays . .  well it always has, but I can't handle it anymore and waking up with a hangover to a little one is a bit like hell - for both of us - and who wants to waste a prescious day off feeling like camels have slept in your mouth and hammers have moved into your head??  Not this sister unless I am in a foreign location, with a large swimming pool at my doorstep that I can float in all day long to recover.

I better move it - I have to make the Mexican Salad . . . . . 


I will check in again soon.

Have fun.

Love and Bliss

Helen xxx

The Beginning

Today is the first day of my transformation from BLACK TO BLISS.

I have been studying interested in and studying health and wellbeing since 2005.  I know sooooo much but it is in the DOING that I fall down :(

I am currently studying to be a Health Coach with the Institute of Integrative Nutrition and in one of the lectures by Mastin Kipp he talks about fear and also being a spiritual/self help junkie.  We buy CD's, DVD's, books, subscriptions to online programs and order workbooks, but we never read, listen, do anything with them!  We might start, but fear, lack of self worth, procrastination or self-sabotage starts to take over and we slip back into that melancholy or state of "blah" until the next email, Facebook advertisement, or recommendation has us purchasing more!!

Confession or realisation time - that's me!!!!  

I can give advice on so much of this until the cows come home.  I've got myself to Los Angeles to see Bob Proctor and do his "You Were Born Rich" program, I have been to many seminars and talks on health, wellbeing and success, I have had amazing healing results with some areas of my own health - but when it comes to "walking ALL the talk" - I fall VERY SHORT!!!

You see it is not in the knowing, but in the doing that achievement, success and happiness prevails.

So, today, as I type this I am overweight, overwhelmed and financially strapped!  I don't feel good about myself at all and I certainly don't look like someone who could advise anyone on health, wellbeing and success!  You can't run a business called Blissful Sister when you feel like a Black Witch on the inside and don't look healthy and glowing on the outside. 

Don't get me wrong, I have lots of good things in my life - my daughter, family and friends, a home to live in and jobs* - but when you don't feel great, the good things look a little grey and shady and you can forget important things like being grateful for what you have. 

The good news is that I woke up New Year's day feeling hopeful and realising that anything is possible - you just have to DO IT!!  

My list to accomplish going from Black to Bliss

• Get fit - move more, eat nutritious food, feel good in my body - I need to lose at least 20kg;
• Finish my studies (I am 8 units behind with a test due on 25 of this month) and the course finishes in July 2016;
• Work on Blissful Sister - cooking classes, blog, website;
• Complete my Leonie Dawson "2016 Create your Shining Year in Life" and "2016 Create Your Shining Year in Biz" workbooks.  I am an affiliate, I love Leonie Dawson, you can find out more here: http://tinyurl.com/hshqskt
• Increase my income :) 
• Be a kind, fun, patient and loving Mum who balances work and play;

I think that's enough for now.

Have a beautiful day and I look forward to sharing my journey, results and the methods, programs, tools I have used, with you.

Love and Bliss

Helen

xx

* I left my job in Oct 2015 to dedicate time to Blissful Sister, but I fell into a hole, I did less than when I was working and of course, had little income.  So I realised that I needed to get another job (I luckily found two) and start again - one step at at time :)