How can it be that three and a half months have passed by and I haven't blogged??
The point of this blogging thing is to make me accountable!
Bloody Nora!!
The good news is that I feel soooo much better, the darkness has lifted. I am enjoying my two jobs because the people I work with are AWESOME.
I am slowly making a little headway financially, but I would not say I have increased my income significantly . . . yet.
The INN progress has not improved, but I will get there - I will!!
Leonie Dawson workbook - a bit hit and miss too.
What have I been doing?? A little bit of "ground hog day" mixed in with juggling work and my daughter, being LAZY - yes LAZY. Sometimes after work and the bath/dinner/bedtime routine and dishes, this Sister just wants to park her bum on the couch and watch some mindless TV. Which is shocking to admit, but the truth. Then I wonder why I haven't changed my life!!!
I read a post on Leonie Dawson's facebook page the other day that said :
I've only heard this a few thousand times, but it was the visual of the coloured text above that kind of hit me between the eyes.
How do you get fit if you don't get out of bed and more your arse?
How do you become a Health Coach if you don't complete your units and graduate?
How do you glow with health if you don't do ALL the things necessary for the mind, body and soul to get you there?
The good news is that I feel much better, I have left the grey, sad fog behind and although I have my moments, I am moving through them quickly and realising the opportunities they provide for learning, growth, application of what I know.
I have also been having Kineseology and it has been blowing my mind! The things that are coming up are incredible
- My absolute sense of fear around starting my own business, my logical mind wants me safely ensconced in a 'normal job' to provide financial security. This explains why it felt like I had my arms and legs cut off whenever I sat down to work on Blissful Sister after I left work in October.
- My struggle with forgiveness, of both others and myself. I thought I was progressing, but not as much as I thought.
- My fear of relationships - all across the board. I know I don't want an intimate relationship with anyone soon, but I have been neglecting my friendships with family and friends.
- This is interesting considering what's above, but I fear I am a loner. When that came up I cried so much my hair was soaked and it took a while before we could move on. It was a revelation because I thought I liked being alone, but perhaps that is a protective mechanism?
- My inability to connect with my higher self - that is the one I am exploring at the moment.
In light of my need to strengthen relationships and try and move out of my loneliness - I am going to a friend's house tonight to watch The Eagles (Aussie Rules) and drink sparkling wine - not too much hopefully LOL! Alcohol and me have an interesting relationship, it kinda kills me nowadays . . well it always has, but I can't handle it anymore and waking up with a hangover to a little one is a bit like hell - for both of us - and who wants to waste a prescious day off feeling like camels have slept in your mouth and hammers have moved into your head?? Not this sister unless I am in a foreign location, with a large swimming pool at my doorstep that I can float in all day long to recover.
I better move it - I have to make the Mexican Salad . . . . .
I will check in again soon.
Have fun.
Love and Bliss
Helen xxx
